7 Signs of a Troubled Relationship

When couples wait too long to ask for help, the relationship may be beyond repair. The sooner help is sought, the better chance there is of recovering, saving and actually strengthening the relationship. This includes issues dealing with affairs or other types of betrayal.

The longer we wait, the more entrenched we get in destructive patterns and resentment and all hope for change is lost. At a certain point we don't even want change... we just want to be done.

The seven warning signs that a relationship is in trouble are:

1. Fighting has become the rule rather than the exception to the rule.

2. You find yourself looking outside the relationship for comfort, care, and understanding.

3. You can't remember what attracted you to your partner in the first place.

4. There is little or no intimacy in your relationship -- sleeping in different rooms or different beds, lack of interest, anger, and hostility so that intimacy is out of the question.

5. Spending very little time together, friends seem to be more important than your partner.

6. Reactions to situations are disproportionate to the content of the disagreement (i.e., feeling your partner doesn't love you because she/he didn't like the meal you cooked).

7. Feeling helpless and hopeless to change anything. Feeling done with the relationship, but unclear as to where to go and what to do. Feelings of anger, resentment, pain, and desperation are predominant.

If any or all of these describe you in your relationship, your relationship is in trouble and it won't be long before something more drastic happens, such as an affair, arguments get worse and inflate with intensity, increased jealousy, silence for longer periods of time, and sometimes even physical and/or verbal abuse.

Before your relationship reaches that critical crisis point, look at the warning signs and do something before it's too late:

1. Seek psychotherapy
2. Read books
3. Talk to a spiritual/religious adviser
   

Without help, the relationship will never get better with time; once a certain level of resentment, anger, and hostility hits, it will simply get worse and worse. Avoiding a total crisis and saving the relationship is done by knowing when you're in trouble and taking immediate action.

Gods Tears =/

Rain bears reminding of God's bitter tears
Lost are his blessings in cold, hardened fears.
He cries for lack of empathy
He cries in souls divided
He cries when people's endless hate
Forever gets ignited.
He cries for the lies that are hidden...
When preachers say: "Come to church you'll be forgiven".
In truth we know it's all about control of the mass,
It's like the control those don't have that like smoking "grass".*
It's politics, it's religion... it's rules that cause so much fear.
It's blindness. It's a truth people cannot bear.
Every felt raindrop brings stain to creation
Removed from the people he once felt relation.
Can't find morality in religion's betrayal,
Turns with disgust from extremist's portrayal.
He weeps when faced with persecution
He weeps for rights refrained
He weeps in words that seek to hurt
In bigotry sustained.
Rain clouds gain pattern from God's lonely perch
Intolerant speech marks an unholy church
He cries in lost inclusive virtue
He cries the narrow mind
He cries in doctrine twisted 'round
That only serves to blind
Rain hopes for cleansing what preaching's disgraced..
Compassionate values might be more embraced.


* Even tho I don't do drugs, have never done it. We all know the reason why marijuana hasn't been legalized it is because it can't be controlled. Has nothing to do with being "right" or "wrong". (Even tho I find it stupid why people do it at all...)

Tears

I cry tears
Not sad ones today
Awash, my tears swim
Gliding along contours of a face
With an ear to ear grin...

I cry tears
Drops of joy loving you
Cleansing streams down my cheek.
Full of hope as I know you feel the same way too.

I cry tears
Whether real or imagined, half tears or a whole;
Of a love started yet to be experienced...
Explored by two bodies sharing one soul.

I cry tears
Not sour tears or tears of despair.
Today I cry tears that are warm like your body...
And sweet like your lips. It's only fair!

I cry tears that talk a new dialect...
Tears that have no need to speak.
Tears that shine when our eyes meet,
Tears that show how you are perfect.

I cry tears that have no need to be heard.
Tears with no wants...
Tears without haunts...
Tears of one that loves.

Happiness & Joy

I am lost in this life
And I'm not sure what brings me this strife.
Where did I go?
How to find me? I might not know...
But I'm sure I was once here.
Somewhere near,
Yet so far away?
My life seems to stay, how come?
And it keeps me searching still
For the will to go on
When I doubt the woman I've become.
And I'm not one with myself
And the pain inside my soul
Keeps me from being whole
So I look deep within me
And hatred is all I see.
All that's there is a pain inside my heart
To the point I now start to doubt:
Why am I here?

What is this existence about?
So I cry in the night
For this life's nowhere in sight...
Within I grasp...
And as I gasp...
for a breath of refreshing air
Or a break in my despair.
So I resign myself to this
There is no joy or happiness.

So wrong but so right...

My view in Iraq is pretty simple actually...
At first there were lies:
"Uh, weapons of mass destruction..." (That everyone knew it was a lie from the start! That's why the rest of the world wanted proof of those);

So... We put THAT much money into Iraq to "look" for something that is not even there!?

And then... LOTS of soldiers... HUNDREDS, THOUSANDS! (money spent in weapons, clothing, food, etc... money that could of been saved for this ECONOMIC CRISIS, that would probably not even exist if it wasn't for the mistake of going there in the first place!)

Some kill innocents, some get killed... In the end? You ask a soldier why he's there... They don't even know! "Well... it's orders!" (Oh, sorry... So let me just go kill people without even knowing why?);

Oh sorry... it's because of the terrorists...
Yes, didn't you people know? All Muslim people are just a bunch of terrorists!
Their beliefs are SO STUPID! Because it's not what I believe in.

Isn't a brain washed Christian just as bad as a brain washed Muslim? (uh, this is really bad!)

Some soldiers to sleep at night say they are there to help the oppressed people.
People that never asked for help.
People that don't even want them there. Or our ways. Or our lifestyle!

So we went into Iraq when we should of been concentrated in Afghanistan! And now we can't leave Iraq because they will kill each others. Now we created conflict within there. (like it wasn't enough before!) - Those who stood by us are called traitors. (or worse)

There are soldiers stuck in Iraq sucking each others DICKS everyday and bothering who doesn't want to be bothered, because what's there to do? Obviously not much!
(I'm so vulgar! - smiles)

I don't care what anyone says.
Going to Iraq WAS (IS) a MISTAKE!
Leaving there now IS a mistake!

War is a mistake! (And war is not necessary to evil, who ever said that is/was an idiot!)

Hopefully Obama can come up with some GENIUS plan.
And with his ability of speech... make the world follow him and prove that there can be a black Jesus! (now this is me just being goofy)!

He hasn't proved anything yet. But if the whole world was sitting watching TV that day of the election... just to make sure Obama would win to celebrate... I'll give him props for that already!

So...

HOOREY BARACK OBAMA!

10 Reasons Why You Should Get Sleep:

You may literally have to add it to your to-do list, but scheduling a good night's sleep could be one of the smartest health priorities you set. It's not just daytime drowsiness you risk when shortchanging yourself on your seven to eight hours. Possible health consequences of getting too little or poor sleep can involve the cardiovascular, endocrine, immune and nervous systems. In addition to letting life get in the way of good sleep, between 50 and 70 million Americans suffer from a chronic sleep disorder—insomnia or sleep apnea, say—that affects daily functioning and impinges on health. Consider the research:

1) Less may mean more. For people who sleep under seven hours a night, the fewer zzzz's they get, the more obese they tend to be, according to a 2006 Institute of Medicine (IOM) report. This may relate to the discovery that insufficient sleep appears to tip hunger hormones out of whack. Leptin, which suppresses appetite, is lowered; ghrelin, which stimulates appetite, gets a boost.

2) You're more apt to make bad food choices. A study published in the October 15, 2008 issue of the Journal of Clinical Sleep Medicine found that people with obstructive sleep apnea or other severely disordered breathing while asleep ate a diet higher in cholesterol, protein, total fat, and total saturated fat. Women were especially affected.

3) Diabetes and impaired glucose tolerance, its precursor, may become more likely. A 2005 study published in the Archives of Internal Medicine found that people getting five or fewer hours of sleep each night were 2.5 times more likely to be diabetic, while those with six hours or fewer were 1.7 times more likely.

4) The ticker is put at risk. A 2003 study found that heart attacks were 45 percent more likely in women who slept for five or fewer hours per night than in those who got more.

5) Blood pressure may increase. Obstructive sleep apnea, for example, has been associated with chronically elevated daytime blood pressure, and the more severe the disorder, the more significant the hypertension, suggests the 2006 IOM report. Obesity plays a role in both disorders, so losing weight can ease associated health risks.

6) Auto accidents rise. As stated in a 2007 report in the New England Journal of Medicine, nearly 20 percent of serious car crash injuries involve a sleepy driver—and that's independent of alcohol use.

7) Balance is off. Older folks who have trouble getting to sleep, who wake up at night, or are drowsy during the day could be 2 to 4.5 times more likely to sustain a fall, found a 2007 study in the Journal of Gerontology.

8) You may be more prone to depression. Adults who chronically operate on fumes report more mental distress, depression, and alcohol use. Adolescents suffer, too: One survey of high school students found similarly high rates of these issues. Middle schoolers, too, report more symptoms of depression and lower self-esteem.

9) Kids may suffer more behavior problems. Research from an April issue of the Archives of Pediatric and Adolescent Medicine found that children who are plagued by insomnia, short duration of sleeping, or disordered breathing with obesity, for example, are more likely to have behavioral issues like attention deficit hyperactivity disorder.

10) Death's doorstep may be nearer. According to three large studies published in the journals Sleep and the Archives of General Psychiatry, people over age 30 who slept five hours or less per night had approximately a 15 percent greater risk of dying—regardless of the cause—over the periods studied, which ranged from six to 14 years.

John Donne Quote:

"Love built on beauty, soon as beauty, dies."

Dig? How much?

Your fear is the width of your actions.

Your courage is the depth.
How deep can you dig in one spot?

Life is amazing...

When you don't know what to do?
Should you do nothing?

~

When you don't know what to say?
Should you just listen?

~

The best thing anyone has to offer is love.
(followed by respect and trust);

~

How can someone even ask for that?
How can people take something that is not given?

~

There are no "You Have To" in this life.
Have To Do's are for followers not for leaders.

Hillary Clinton & Barack Obama ~

I thought this was funny, decided to share.
Hillary is still my home girl tho.
Vote: Barack Obama!

~ Sleep ~

After a long weekend, gym and a shower...
We end up "crashing" on the couch. Even the cat!
[Niko, cat and I]

Giving....

I'm afraid of dedicating my life to someone that is not worth it.
(sad...)

No comparison, not with me!

There's no such thing as total forgiveness or forgetful;
The footprints in your soul aren't destroyable...
And the ones in your heart, can't be demolished.

The past is gone,
What I long for is away,
But the present is mine...

I have everything except a comparison!

~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~

Nao existe o esquecimento total:
as pegadas impressas na alma sao destrutiveis;
no coracao indescritiveis.

O passado fugiu,
O que espero esta ausente,
mas o presente e meu...

Tenho tudo, so nao tenho comparacao!

[sigh] HappyNess... is not a destination!

You're the first thing I think in the morning when I rise

You're the last thing I think before I close my eyes.
You're the miracle in my life,
Who can always make me smile...
Just knowing that you care
makes my life worth-while!
Forgive my eyes for admiring your beauty.
You stole my heart the moment you looked at me,
Call me crazy, call me insane...
My heart beats mentioning your name!
Love isn't a decision...
It's a beautiful feeling...
If we could decide whom to love
It would lose it's meaning!
We would probably have no problems, at all...
But then it would be less magical.
My eyes are blind,
Without yours to see...
You are just too kind,
When you talk to me.
Like a rose without color
Like bread without butter,
That would shall be
Your life without me! [lol]
Love is to feel someone in every heartbeat,
To find someone in every thought,
To see someone with closed eyes,
To care for them with all your heart.
To miss someone without good reason, you know...
My beauty is the reflexion of your eyes glow.
I made a mistake,
Now I have to face the consequences of my action.
But until you're back in my arms,
I will never have the satisfaction.
I'm so happy that we met...
It's like I've known you forever.
If I could rewrite the alphabet,
I'd put U and I together.

~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~

You must be a good runner...
Because you are always running in my mind!
You must be a good thief...
Because you have stolen my heart!
And I must be a bad shooter...
Because I Always Miss You!

Things Women Shouldn't Do! LOL

No doubt there are countless things you do that turn your man into a lust-fueled fool. But on the flip side, there are also subtle behaviors that abate your allure faster than it takes a pair of Hollywood lovebirds to get engaged. Here are a handful of them:
[Sometimes you dampen a man's desire... without even realizing it.]

Catty Chatter

"On the drive home from my friend's housewarming party, the girl I was dating -- past tense! -- started bad-mouthing the other women she met that night," says Thomas, 30. "She literally had something nasty to say about every female there. By the time she finished her rant, I was like, either all of my friends suck or this chick is an insecure idiot. I decided it was the latter and got rid of her." And there you have it:

Hard-Core Maintenance

Watching you smooth scented lotion all over your bare legs? Priceless. But you couldn't even pay a guy to eyewitness the ugly side of getting pretty -- think clipping your toenails, extracting a blackhead, flossing those back teeth. Just ask Walter, 28: "Maybe it's not totally PC, but I want my girl to be sugar and spice and everything nice," he admits.

In-His-Face Flirting

Sure, being playful with another man may score you a free drink or get you out of a speeding ticket. But by the umpteenth hair flip and giggle, your guy's wondering just how "friendly" you would get if he weren't right next to you. Allow Liam, 19, to elaborate: "My last girlfriend knew how to work a room," he says. "But too often her flirting would get out of control, like she actually wanted the other guys. Before long, I started to view her antics as cheap rather than charming."

Trash-talking your ex.
Don't talk negatively about an ex-boyfriend in front of a guy you're dating. I don't care if you're on your first date or on your 15th date with a guy, don't ever trash-talk your ex. Your ex is somebody you dated, invited into your life, and with whom you spent a lot of time. So don't talk negatively about your ex in any way, because what a guy thinks when you do this is that if he ever becomes your ex that you're going to trash-talk him the same way. So, when a man asks you about your ex, you can politely say, "We are no longer together. It was a great relationship while it lasted, and I learned a lot." That's it.

Paranoia runs rampant.
Here you are dating a man you really like, and the first couple of weeks are going well. Then, that first boys' night out happens. In the beginning, you send him a text that says, "Have a great time tonight!" As the night progresses, however, seeds of doubt start forming in your mind about what he's doing, and you start to think "Is he cheating on me? Is he flirting with other women? Where is he right now?" So then, you lob another text in to him asking "What's going on? What are you doing right now?" Even though he tells you he's just hanging out with his friends, you proceed to make a major blunder: You start checking up on him with continuous texts throughout the night. This paranoia will push a man away. So when you are dating a man and he's out with his friends, respect his "guy time" -- it will make you the cool woman he's always wanted to find.

Fishing for compliments.
This is something that can drive a man crazy. Here is a typical scenario: The guy you're dating looks at you and says, "You really look beautiful tonight!" Ten minutes later, you look at him and ask, "How do I look tonight?" Stop fishing for compliments. Real compliments come from the heart. Allow us to compliment you when we really mean it. If we don't give a compliment at the exact moment you desire it, just accept it and be OK with that.

Clingy and possessive.
You don't need to do everything together. You're still getting to know him. If there are things he likes to do that simply don't interest you, be cool with it. You don't have to be joined at the hip. If you are going to a cocktail party together, you don't have to be next to him at every moment. If you see him speaking with some woman at the party, do not immediately run over and start grabbing his hand and giving him a big hug -- and certainly don't do this all night long. You are being clingy and possessive when you do this.

Pushing friends on him.
Avoid pushing friends on us too soon. Example: A woman will hang out with a guy on the first or second date and say to him, "You have to meet my friends Jenna and Amy. You also have to meet my friends Phil and Anne; they're such a great couple, and you'll love them!" A man hears this and thinks, "I don't even know you yet. Can I get to know you for a month or two before I have to go meet all of your friends and be put on display as 'the boyfriend?'" We don't want to be "the boyfriend" right away. It's too much pressure. We want to get to know you slowly and learn what you're all about. Believe me, once we get to know you -- and like you -- we will be more willing to get to know all of your friends.

Following these tips will help you get past the first month of a new relationship with a man and avoid some of the major pitfalls that can end a new relationship before it even starts. Be the confident woman you really are so we have a chance to embrace you. Don't scare us off before we have a chance to get to know you!

-> Funny I usually say women are pretty... maybe that's bad too? LOL!
-> I'm "OCD" when it comes to hygiene! I floss, brush and waterpik my teeth, everyday, twice!
-> Well, people tend to say I flirt. Just because it's rare to find someone nice now-a-days?! Blah.
But I tend to be really up-front and honest... and not mislead anyone into unfortunate encounters with reality checks! [OMJ - Oh My Jesus!!]
-> Ex's shouldn't even be a conversation!
-> Paranoia is so lame, I come out as being insensitive because I'm secure. And I trust...
-> Fishing for compliments? That is so wrong! You should know what you are. I do.
-> Possessive? It's good because it means they care, it's bad when it's too much of it. Insecurity sometimes leads to mistrust... and that's a pity!
-> Pushing friends, well they are your friends. Not his. they will never be his. And that's all I have to say!

Invisible....

Do you really believe in your head
That takes that long for me to find
What you have been looking for
but you've been just too blind?
Are you really closing the door,
That will keep you satisfied?
You can look but you can't touch...
I don't think I like you quite as much...
All I wanted was to be pacified.
So what if I'm in love?
How much longer for the cure?
It's hard to say what I see in you...
Words can't explain and I can't do.
I just know it feels so genuine, so pure...
What to make to end it faster?
But then... what comes after!?
I wanted to burn out bright!
To be levitated, be out of sight.
But you... you are like a drop in the ocean...
... collapse with so much motion
But then taken with the waves sway.
You're like a feather flying away!
You fall in and out of love, do you hesitate?
You make me look at you as a mistake!
If it never started it can't be done,
If I never had you, you can't be gone.
If we are all different,
How can two make a whole?
Well, you don't need to be too intelligent...
Love of two is one:
Two hearts and one soul.
And this is my state...
Thinking: "Oh well, it's too late!"
I got a hole in me now...
I got a scar in my heart!
How is it going to heal, how?
If you are the missing part.
I wish I was made of steel
Or just as invisible as you make me feel.

Velhote...

Parabens!
E pensar que te conheci eras ainda um puto! [...]

Meaning of The Portuguese Flag! =D~~

Explanation of the Portuguese flag:

• The five blue shields represents the five moor kings defeated by the first King of Portugal, D. Afonso Henriques, at the Battle of Ourique.
• The dots inside the blue shields represent the five wounds of Christ when crucified. Counting the dots and doubling those five in the center, there are thirty dots that represents the coins Judas received for having betrayed Christ.
• The seven castles represents the fortified cities D. Afonso Henriques conquered from the moors.
• The globe represents the world discovered by the Portuguese navigators in the fifteen and sixteenth centuries.
• The green strip is meant to symbolize the hope in the future and the red the blood of the nation’s heroes.

Family Guy ~ I dream of Jesus

Just thought I change my posts a little.
And add a video of the only show that can make me stare at the TV for hours:

"Lois: It seems today, that all you see, is violence in movies and sex on TV
Peter: But where all those good 'ol fashioned values
All: On which we used to rely?
Lucky there's a family guy
Lucky there's a man who, positively can do
All the things that make us
Stewie: Laugh and cry!
All: He's our family Guuuuuuy!"

A peaceful weekend in Kansas?

People usually don't appreciate little things.
(even things you don't have to pay for...)
Like... a smile! Or a mere: "Good Morning!"
Or a walk to the park...
A walk on the beach...
Listen to the waves just coming in... and breaking through...
The sunrise, the birds singing... [I miss home]
The stars, the sky, the clouds, the sun, the rain...
I could just stare at the sky forever sometimes... :)
Paddle boats!
I could stay here all day naming things.
"Stupid" little things!
Anyways, all this to say that we dragged each others out of the house and went and done something different and here is the proof:

[This is how my mornings look...]

[It attacked me! Because the flash was bothering it tried to jump on me!]

LOL... Me and my Madrinha could not get out of the park without hitting the paddle boats first... She had her foot under water every time she paddled. OMG it was so funny!
We also had a bunch of little kids attacking us, hitting their boats against ours! It was funny.

Drinking Dr.Pepper instead of water... IT WAS HOT outside! Should of wore shorts.

Couldn't help but grab the balls!
They have mini-golf at the park... [woot!]

*For Me?* [aww...]

She has a quiet peacefulness,
Gently touching those who wade in her presence.
A soothing voice,
Reaching out to an opened ear.
Violently she can rise to an impassioned fury,
Destructive; dangerous in her reach.
Screaming anger,
She yells out to beware her wrath.
Rolling toward, she offers herself willingly,
Pulling back, daring to take her on.
Fiercely she attacks all who stand their ground,
Leaving dismissively as if never having appeared.
Returning swiftly over and over again,
Gracefully departing with equal consistency.
She is home to countless who live within her love,
Embracing against her breast all that breath her life.
With total abandon she bombards years of perfectionist creation,
The slap of her hand eroding what has stood through time.
She is stubbornly independent,
Basking in a freedom that cannot be tamed.
She is hopelessly dependent,
Wilting at the whim of men, who contaminate her heart.
She is alive; beautiful.
She is withdrawn; ravaging.
She is a million built continuities,
An equally measured marked discrepancies.

She is all that.


[Written for me so long ago...]

~ Prince Charming, not... ~

The soothing voice that fills my ears

A laughter tender so
Every moment within his midst
Is all I need to know.

Finally re-felt his gentle touch

His body warm to hold
Kisses melting upon my lips
His beauty I behold.

He lays behind me & there is quite a "flow"...
In his arms he holds me tight...
His passion rises in basking glow.
My love I can’t deny.

With morning comes new realizations
Another evening’s past it seems
Even as loving as it was, with new aspirations...
Was just another of my dreams.

Now each life I cling with need
My lover I hope I find
As eyes grow heavy and thoughts grow dim
I seek him in my mind.

I've been dreaming for days,
Nearly or close to fall,
Prince Charming, If I may,
Isn't a Prince after all...

Charming, yes you are,
Manners are alack,
You're not worth wishing that star,
I always wait for you to be back?

And Prince, I'd like to tell you this,
At least once before I go,
I really LIKED U A LOT.
I've got no more cards to show.

Glass slipper ain't mine,
I am not asleep either,
I have two feet just fine.
So don't think I'm your Princess neither.

I won't be dreaming today,
Neither will I fall
He may or not be a Prince,
But He ain't mine after ALL.

~ TanninG ~

[before getting in the tanning bed, should I do it?]

[after I got out of the tanning bed... ]

I just want to register my first time going tanning.
So this post is precisely about that!
I went tanning for the first time today.
I must admit I felt a bit scared and awkward laying on a bed to get color. (how lame)
I find it stupid since we have all summer to do outdoor activities and stuff but hey... who cares.
Body is just matter... if it rottens... oh GREAT! [it happens]!
I laid there... A lot of things were going through my mind,... to the point where I had the radio playing and if you asked me any of the songs that were playing I cannot tell you.
Thoughts going through my head:
- It's getting hot.
- It's getting hotter.
- It burns a little.
- Maybe I should try to open this back up just to make sure I am not stuck here (so I did..)
- Will I stay with the mark of these little stupid glasses on my face... ?
- Will this tell me when to get up?
- Will it get any hotter?
- Turn little glasses around so I don't get the mark of them on my nose...
- Do they say there's Regular, Maximum and whatever ... just to pretend all settings aren't the same?
- Oh, I feel it burning my skin now.
- Yup, it's frying...
- Why am I doing this again?
- What if I fall asleep?
- I am sure that are people that come here tired and they fall asleep...
- Wow, this is crazy.
- Let me try to open this back up just to check if it STILL opens... (so I did...)
- Let me check the timer...
- 3 Minutes...
- Time for one more song...
- Some lame country shit playing...
- I can't believe I'm doing this...
- Lights on the tanning bed go off...
- I get up... put clothes back on.
- OH SHIT... I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING LOBSTER! [picture above]
- 10 minutes, wow... this is crazy.
- Is this normal?
[Then I'm just tripping about it the whole way home!]

Life Happens...

You have to take the good with the bad,

smile with the sad,
love what you've got,
remember what you had,
always forgive,
but never forget,
learn from your mistakes,
but never regret,
people change,
things go wrong,
but always remember life goes on.

Procuro...

[home]

Nos dias que passam, os dias em que o tempo se fez tempo de sorrir.
Dias pintados na cor suave de um raio de sol, iluminando pelo brilho de um terno olhar...
Nas noites frias que se aproximam, e se fazem sentir, os sentidos de outras noites, serenas e magicas. Noites, onde o sonho se fez quadro colorido na tela branca das minhas paredes [e tecto]!
A minha fadinha do nada... que tanto me persegue! =]

Procuro...

Nas palavras que nascem do silencio desta ausensia, a voz que se fez murmurio no vento.
Voz que foi melodia ritmada no compasso do meu coracao...
Nos gestos ja sentidos, aqueles que tocaram de leve a minha alma.
Gestos que foram abracos de ternura e aconchego...

Procuro...

Nos sentidos que ficaram e na saudade que se fez presente, nas emocoes que despertaram e nos desejos que permanecem...
Na chuva miudinha que brota dos olhos e na esperanca va e inocente, na alma que chora e no coracao que silencia a dor...

Procuro...

Por ti que sabes usar as cores do arco-iris para pintar os dias de um ceu azul inebriado e de um mar tranquilo e sereno.
Por ti que iluminas as noites com luares de magia e embalas os sonhos nas mil estrelas que teimo em querer alcancar...
Tu que es sorriso, toque suave na alma e sentido no coracao!

Procuro...

E continuarei ah procura, ate que me faltem as forcas...
Mesmo sem saber o que realmente procuro, e o que poderei vir a encontrar...
Apenas procuro o amor... Aquele que sei que existe... E para que vivo...
E no final de tanta procura ainda quem acabara por encontrar nao serei eu...

Mas ele a mim...

* 2 intelligent beings... *

- I know how to reach a perfect world!
- A perfect World? It does exist.
- I know it does, indeed. I know how to reach it.

~ War
~ Politics
~ People
~ Perspective
~ Dictation
~ Neighbors House
~ World without War/Death
~ No pure and innocent, because that's a communist idea LOL
~ Consciousness

- We do not need to be perfect not to kill one another. We need to be RATIONAL!
- Is that even possible for human beings? Isn't the human being full of consciousness for itself?
- Am I insane?
- No you are not insane.
- I am conscientious of everything, don't you understand you are everything? One With the world?

~ Conflict
~ Provocation
~ Bombs
~ 2008, there should not be no war
~ No hunger
~ Peace
~ Development
~ Progress
~ Union

- There are rich people and poor people for a reason. For a good balance. They exist so we can help them stand on their feet. They shall walk by themselves afterwards.
- Are they willing to walk?
- People with good will should be out there feeding the people.
- You... You... are my consciousness. :)
- You can be whatever you want to be, even a Prince.
- But I am a Prince.

~ Timor
~ Voices
~ Change
~ Opportunity
~ Children
~ Somalia
~ Thinking
~ Respect
~ Economy

- Being selfish to the point where I only want the BEST for me, is being selfish enough to want the best for the world.
- I was just thinking about that.
- We are crazy.
- Depends.
- I don't want to smoke because I will pollute the air I breathe, therefore harm the world and myself.
- I should not eat sweets, I might get diabetes, give it to my kid somehow, and he will give it to his children and so on...
"Wanting the best for yourself is wanting the best for the world, it is like a Universal Choice"
- How can one be without trying to understand what surrounds him? I am so different from all of them in this matter.
-It's your head. It's your consciousness. It's your maturity. It's your heart.
- But you are my right arm.
- I did not go and look for ONE... I searched for ONE PRINCE.
- I did not search for you.
- You do not find things you do not search for.
- I don't understand people.
- They are us, carried by different turns, lives and choices... If we ought to try what they did we would be just like them.

~ Homosexual
~ Acceptance
~ Conservative
~ Pastor
~ Inconsequential
~ Humanity
~ Marriage
~ Babies
~ Artificial

- If they prove to me they can procreate within species, I will accept them in society.
Without artificial insemination! If a man and a man, can't make another; And a woman and a woman can't make another. There must be something wrong with the "picture".
If everyone opted to be that way. We would be the last generation on Earth. Is that right?
- Gay people have a social status just like yours.
- Well it has nothing to do with the fact it's men with men or women with women... yet, it is the fact they CANNOT procreate!
- You are just being catastrophic!

~ Adoption
~ Limits
~ Discrimination
~ Awareness
~ Equals
~ Permission
~ Authority
~ Evolve
~ Minds

- It's easy to know they are not enough. IT is not so easy to know if I am enough.
- Who knows? I know. You are.
- You do? I am?
- You don't feel determined enough... maybe you are not so sure...
- "... singing ..."
- Fight for your dreams, for your ideas. Yell at the world. Make it roar to your voice, to your actions, through you attitude!
- Run away... And never look back.
- You will not do it.
- Why?
- Because the BEST you can do it's stay!
- Best, Selfishness...

~ Jealousy
~ Fear
~ Doubt
~ Present
~ Questions
~ Solutions
~ Future
~ Love
~ Forever

- I have a feeling of Deja Vu!
- This is where our "self's" in some other dimension just fell apart.
- Tu não perderás nunca esse desejo de andar nas nuvens, de sonhar tão profundamente?
- I am afraid I never will. I want to be a girl a bit longer.
- What if it's a girl?
- If it's not true today, it wasn't true yesterday! What it's not, it never was! =D
- Hey! There you go jumping from cloud to cloud... Look at me, I'm down here.

~ I'll stay at that. And state this: Dreams. ~

~ONE~

In this advanced generation that we call ourselves. Where words are used in dismay of feelings.
In false pretense everything is done. That is the world we choose to live in.
Some people might call me crazy, some call me insane, some call me insensitive...
... but in the end, I know who I am and what I have to give;
I might not say it everyday:
- "Thank You"
- "I miss you"
- "I am sorry"
or even
- "I love you"...
.... but when I say it, I mean it.
It is my Idea to say it, it is with a purpose. And different from steel, those... cannot be bent.

There are a lot of things that makes me different from others but there are also a lot of things that makes us all the same.
If not where we came from, what's our purpose and where we're going; maybe the rudeness, the hope, the love... or the Ideas.
We all have ideas. Some of us choose to actually use them. Any idea, any thought can be reality.
"You are never given the wish without also being given the power to make it true. You may have to work for it, however." [Richard Bach]

Once upon a time, I dared to tell someone (that could care less):
"One day, I shall do great things!"

The truth is, I do great things. NOW.
Right on this moment, I am doing amazing things.
We are timeless creatures. Who's to say what's past, present and future?
If the question of the time can sometimes be deceived? If hours can seem minutes and minutes can seem hours, at times?
If dreams seem so real that you can touch? You can feel? You can imagine... You can create an Idea.
We are chapters? We are channels? What are we?
I like pictures; and these don't even move. Even tho you can can pretend they do, they "appear" to move. [that's reality!]
So, I'll call Everything an album.
Maybe we live our lives for that perfect shot. That steady, colorful, unimaginable, beautiful shot, Moment. Idea.

I shall become one with the world. I am ONE with Everything.

How I have changed. [I smile]
It's not that we don't know where to go...
Or we don't know what to find...
... We do.
It's the awareness of our consciousness that sometimes we lack of.
When you try to look for something, don't you find it?
If you really put work into it? Research? Effort? Thought?
You will find it! If you don't, you were not true at heart.

Richard Bach said well:
"Bad things are not the worst things that can happen to us. Nothing is the worst thing that can happen to us!"

Even tho there are probably millions, billions of self's living who I am NOW...
The truth is there's points in time where histories will meet but some might evolve some might not.
So you could actually be me... And I could be you... With different shapes and different choices made...
And we are all just a big ONE.

With all this, you might think twice when you ought to judge someone.
What if that is one of the billion self's you could of been? Or... that you are?
Would you like to be treated with disrespect? (...)
We all relate people. We do. Doesn't matter who you are.

And we all suffer. We will all get hurt. And it's acceptable.
But the choice of who deserves that pain, is yours.

Make Is be with you.

;)

~ Woman I am ~

(speak no evil, see no evil, hear no evil)

Lovers, partners and all things else

Today is the beginning of the end
Why you have to be so insulse?
How can we remain until we ascend?
Destined together was the start,
And now all that remains, it's both of us apart.
"The problem is all inside your head" - you said to me.
Well, I can sure help set you free.
It grieves me so to see you in such pain...
I wish there was something I could do to make you smile again.
All I've done is try to explain...
And days have passed, I've realized it was all in vain.
Wonder what really happened to us then?
- No, I don't want any men!!
Last night you told me in my sleep...
That it was me you couldn't keep...
How can I tolerate such thing?
You act like your mind swing.
You said I wasn't woman enough for you?
Because I talked too much and was egotistic too.
I wasn't soft and warm...
There was so much I needed to do!
When I wasn't doing you any harm...
You spit me out after all the chew.
In addition to that always nagging as well...
Wow, I made your life a living hell!
You said I should be polite and adjust...
Or everything should fall to dust.
Be supportive, not draw comparisons with others to you.
When all you did was again and again all the same do?
I should have always listened without a debate...
I'm sure neither of us would of ran out of fate?!
I don't fit into your idea of a woman
For I flare at the slightest provocation...
I speak my mind without cessation.
Arguments are an integral part of me,
It's sad that after all this time, you just can't see.
As you said all I do is talk nonsense
And I should not say nothing in my defense!
You said: There's a man out there for me...
But you and I are certainly not meant to be.
I could settle for any or all of them if I want...
All I had to do, is go out there and haunt.
I know what you have said of me is not true

Jealousy made me a new woman to you.
What we become! Why didn't you give me a clue?
How I wish this wasn't really true.
Justifications is what you claim I have to say...
And all I do is as I may and my own way.
Killing my spirit, heart and soul was so brutally crude,
Can I ever rise over this character assassination so rude?
My life doesn't need to be lived by two
After all, "I'm man enough for me and you?"
Love is acceptance of the others weaknesses too
Strengths one can accept without loving, getting used to;
You said I am not the perfect woman for you...
A Perfect Woman accepts flaws, yet loves her man true.

#1Greatest Hits from 1958 - 2008

1958: All I Have To Do Is Dream - The Everly Brothers
1959: Stagger Lee - Lloyd Price
1960: Stay - Maurice Williams and the Zodiacs
1961: Surrender - Elvis Presley
1962: I Can't Stop Loving You - Ray Charles
1963: Fingertips Pt. 2 - Stevie Wonder
1964: House Of The Rising Sun - The Animals
1965: (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction - The Rolling Stones
1966: Good Vibrations - The Beach Boys
1967: Hello, Goodbye - The Beatles
1968: (Sittin' On) The Dock Of The Bay - Otis Redding
1969: Everyday People - Sly & the Family Stone
1970: The Tears Of A Clown - Smokey Robinson & The Miracles
1971: Just My Imagination (Running Away With Me) - The Temptations
1972: Let's Stay Together - Al Green
1973: Let's Get It On - Marvin Gaye
1974: The Joker - Steve Miller Band
1975: Island Girl - Elton John
1976: 50 Ways To Leave Your Lover - Paul Simon
1977: Hotel California - The Eagles
1978: Stayin' Alive - Bee Gees
1979: Heart Of Glass - Blondie
1980: Another Brick In The Wall, Pt. 2 - Pink Floyd
1981: Starting Over, (Just Like) - John Lennon
1982: Jack And Diane - John Cougar Mellencamp
1983: Beat It - Michael Jackson
1984: When Doves Cry - Prince
1985: Everybody Wants To Rule The World - Tears for Fears
1986: Sledgehammer - Peter Gabriel
1987: With Or Without You - U2
1988: Sweet Child O' Mine - Guns N' Roses
1989: Like A Prayer - Madonna
1990: Vision Of Love - Mariah Carey
1991: Set Adrift On Memory Bliss - P.M. Dawn
1992: Baby Got Back - Sir Mix-A-Lot
1993: I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston
1994: Bump N' Grind - R. Kelly
1995: Waterfalls - TLC
1996: California Love - 2Pac
1997: Mo Money Mo Problems - Notorious B.I.G.
1998: Doo Wop (That Thing) - Lauryn Hill
1999: Smooth - Santana
2000: Amazed - Lonestar
2001: All For You - Janet Jackson
2002: Hot In Herre - Nelly
2003: Hey Ya! - Outkast
2004: Yeah! - Usher
2005: Gold Digger - Kanye West
2006: SexyBack - Justin Timberlake
2007: Irreplaceable - Beyonce
2008: Lost - Coldplay

Why should you exercise!?

[me @ the gym]

Studies have shown that regular exercise significantly increases life expectancy and improves overall health. Regular physical activity reduces the risk of cancer, heart disease, and osteoporosis. Here are some simple tips to help you get started on a regular plan of physical fitness.

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Tips for getting started on a fitness plan

Social Isolation Makes People Cold, Literally!

The cold shoulder is more than just a metaphor. A new study found that social isolation can actually make people feel cold.
Researchers wanted to learn just how icy loneliness can get. So two University of Toronto psychologists, Chen-Bo Zhong and Geoffrey Leonardelli, asked some subjects to remember a time when they felt socially excluded, such as being rejected from a club, while others recalled memories of being accepted into a group. Afterward, the researchers asked all the participants to estimate the temperature of the room, telling them this task was unrelated to the previous activity and that the building's maintenance staff simply wanted to know.

While estimates ranged from 54 degrees Fahrenheit to 104 degrees Fahrenheit, in general, those who had been remembering emotionally chilly times also literally felt chillier, even though the room's temperature remained constant during the experiment. People who had recalled feeling ostracized estimated the temperature to be about 71 degrees Fahrenheit, on average. Participants who were remembering the warm, fuzzy feeling of social inclusion felt the room to be a balmy 75 degrees Fahrenheit, on average. The discrepancy is a statistically significant difference, Zhong said.

"We found that the experience of social exclusion literally feels cold," Zhong said. "This may be why people use temperature-related metaphors to describe social inclusion and exclusion."

Loneliness is chilly

In a second experiment, Zhong and Leonardelli had participants play a computer-simulated ball-tossing game in which some people were passed the ball more often than others, so some volunteers felt included and others felt excluded. Afterward, the participants had to rate the appeal of various foods and beverages, such as hot coffee, crackers, an ice-cold Coke, an apple and hot soup.

The unpopular players were much more likely to hanker for warm items such as soup and coffee than those who had just felt socially accepted. The findings imply that participants who had been feeling left out were also literally feeling left out in the cold, and wanted the warm foods to heat them up.

"It's striking that people preferred hot coffee and soup more when socially excluded," Leonardelli said. "Our research suggests that warm chicken soup may be a literal coping mechanism for social isolation."

The study is detailed in the September issue of the journal Psychological Science.

Why the connection?

The researchers speculate that this link between temperature and social inclusion might arise when people are babies.

"For an infant, being closer to a caretaker brings warmth," Zhong said. "When you're a kid, being held by your mother means warmth, and being distant means coldness."

This connection continues throughout life, since when a person is in a room with 10 other people, the ambient temperature is warmer than when in a room alone.

"When we talk about metaphors, they're not just language; they're literally the way we experience the world," Zhong told LiveScience.

This finding fits well with a previous study of Zhong's, in which he asked people to recall a time when they were morally challenged and did something they feel guilty about. Afterward, those people felt a greater need for physical cleansing, such as washing their hands.

"Social experience and physical experience actually overlap to a great extent," Zhong said.
Our social perceptions are not always abstract, but include other information such as bodily perception."

>> I find this amazing because I am always cold. LOL <<

~Desiludida ~

Um dia no passado
Tive um aspecto jovem
Juventude que vem
e vai... mas que errado.

As vezes, sinto que estou a meio
nem venho, nem vou...
Eh como estar entre o caminho e o passeio
e um carro que veio, mas ja passou!

Confusa, complicada, desesperada...
Apontam eles o dedo,
grito, chamam-me revoltada,

E dizem: «olha tem medo»
Fico perdida, ofendida
Ninguem me percebe!! «I Desiludida»

Aprende - 400 palavras - 1 minuto!

Basta seguir umas regras basicas (simples).
Mas antes de tudo, quero explicar que as regras apresentam uma ou mais excecoes, o que demonstra duas coisas:

Primeira: que tais excecoes so servem precisamente para confirmar as regras.
Segunda: que eh preferivel, errar numa ou noutra ocasiao e aprender 400 palavras em ingles em 1 minuto, do que ficar preocupado/a com a rara excecao... e nao aprender nada.

Regra 1:

Para todas as palavras em PORTUGUES que terminem em "DADE" (como a palavra CIDADE) retira o DADE e coloca em seu lugar "TY" e assim CIDADE passa a ser CITY.
EXEMPLOS:

VELOCIDADE = VELOCITY
SIMPLICIDADE = SIMPLICITY
NATURALIDADE = NATURALITY
CAPACIDADE = CAPACITY

Regra 2:

Para todas as palavras em PORTUGUES que terminem em "ÇÃO" (como a palavra NAÇÃO) retira o ÇÃO e coloca em seu lugar "TION" e assim NAÇÃO passa a ser NATION.
EXEMPLOS:

SIMPLIFICAÇÃO = SIMPLIFICATION
NAÇÃO = NATION
OBSERVAÇÃO = OBSERVATION
NATURALIZAÇÃO = NATURALIZATION
SENSAÇÃO = SENSATION

Regra 3:

Para todas as palavras em PORTUGUES que terminem em "MENTE" e em seu lugar coloca "LLY". Mas quando o radical em português termina em L, como a palavra TOTALMENTE , acrescenta apenas LY). Ve alguns exemplos:
EXEMPLOS:

GENETICAMENTE = GENETICALLY
NATURALMENTE = NATURALLY
ORALMENTE = ORALLY

Regra 4:

Para todas as palavras em PORTUGUES que terminem em "ÊNCIA" (como a palavra ESSÊNCIA) retira o ÊNCIA e coloca em seu lugar "ENCE" e assim ESSÊNCIA passa a ser ESSENCE.
EXEMPLOS:

REVERÊNCIA = REVERENCE
FREQUÊNCIA = FREQUENCE

Regra 5:

Para palavras que terminam com "AL" (como a palavra GENERAL) nao mudes nada.
EXEMPLOS:

NATURAL = NATURAL
TOTAL = TOTAL
FATAL = FATAL
SENSUAL = SENSUAL


Facil e simples.

~ Eternidade ~

Ha quem viva de caridade...
Quem morra em saudade...
Quem viva por amizade...
Quem viva com ansiedade.
Quem goste de humidade,
Quem deteste simplicidade,
Quem escreva com capacidade...
Quem ame velocidade!
Quem aja com naturalidade.
Quem prefira a cidade.
Quem perca identidade...
Quem seja uma raridade.
As flores necessitam luminiosidade,
Os passaros pedem liberdade...
Ha quem peca felicidade.
Eu peco-te a ti, eternidade.

Opah, VIVE!!

Sabes que nao vou seguir a vida sozinha,
A vida eh como uma linha!
Segue em frente;
Numa constante.

Que erro, que medo...
Tudo eh um enredo...
Nao vivas o dia como se fosse o ultimo
Nao dramatizes tanto!

Vive como se fosse o penultimo,
Pois no ultimo seras um santo.
Sim, porque quando a vida esta a acabar...

E que nos lembramos de deus
Exigimos que nos va perdoar
Por nao sermos um dos "seus";

"Determination is the first chapter in the book of excellence!"

Quem me dera...

Quem me dera ser um passaro
E voar ate ao Infinito
E para sempre recordar
O lugar mais bonito.
Quem me dera ser chuva
Para poder percorrer o teu rosto
E saborea-lo como a uma uma
Que eu tanto gosto.
Quem me dera ser o mar
E assim, poder tocar
Nessa pele irresistivel,
Essa personalidade inesquecivel.
Quem me dera ser o perdao
Agarrar a tua mao
E fortemente apertar...
Nos teus olhos poder olhar;
E pedir-te desculpa,
Embora isso nao apague a culpa.

Dedicado a uma croma qualquer!

Mais triste que a tristeza
Eh ser triste, com certeza...
Tentar ter razao
Estragar os outros, reputacao.
Tentativa Falhada.
Obrigada, de nada...
Obrigado por tentares,
De nada por falhares.
Que gaja tolasca
Eh mesmo panasca!
Quando menos esperares
Tungas! Para aprenderes
A comigo nao te meteres.
E cala-te para nao teres mais azares!
Levas nessas fussas de nojenta
Queres bater-me? Anda ca, tenta.

Outro Soneto!

Indecisao, ai indecisao!
Consegues ser tao cruel...
Tento afastar-me; diz o meu coracao:
<>

Finjo que nao ouco...
E o meu coracao eh que nem poco...
Tem fundo!
E la esta tu, no meu mundo.

Deves pensar depressa e falar devagar
Quando queres enganar alguem...
Mas, nisto de amar

Nao ha espaco a essas coisas, nao sou ninguem.
Aos poucos vais perceber...
Que tudo isto eh mero sofrer.

Uniao de quantos?

Conhecem-se... cumprimentam-se...
"Amam-se"...
Julgam ser o certo
E a uniao esta para perto.
Numa igreja unem lacos
No dia-a-dia dao passos...
Nao lado a lado, um vai ah frente...
Pensando ser o competente.
O outro sente-se ameacado...
Fica desconfiado! E diz estar a ser enganado...
Da provas de insatisfeito,
Aquele que tudo comecou...
E esquece-se que tambem errou...
O casamento esta desfeito!

Preciso de ti...

Preciso de ti.
Da tua presenca.
Da tua companhia.
Dos teus mimos.
Do teu calor.
Do teu toque.
Do teu beijo.
Do teu abraco.
De segurar a tua mao.
De estar ao teu lado.
De olharmos o mar.
De conversarmos.
De viver.
Saudade?
Nao sera esta palavra um insulto
a isto que sinto por nao te ter?

Fazes-me falta.

Chateia-me estar longe de ti,
Irrita-me nao falar contigo...
Nao estar contigo...
Enerva-me pensar em ti
E nao poder tocar-te...
Es tudo o que me causa stress.
Mas tambem es a resolucao de tudo isso.

Es tudo para mim! (Tudo o que?)
O que eh tudo?
Tudo para mim eh tudo o que sei,
O que sinto,
Querer o que desejo...
Ou que necessito.
Tudo tem muitas definicoes;
O que cada um de nos da,
Mais qualquer coisa que nenhum de nos sabe
E que alguns de nos sentem.

=]

Sonhando...

Continuo a sonhar
Com uma nova vida...
Pois se foi bom o meu dormir
Como foi cruel o meu despertar!
Vida nao vida, um pouco indefinida
Mas onde possa sorrir...
E este o meu adormecer
Onde sonhar eh poder.
Acabo por realizar
Pois mesmo a sonhar
Embora num segundo,
Estou no meu mundo.
Passo a passo
Meu passado e presente traco
Caminhando a um futuro...
Um tanto ou quanto duro!
Amolece este meu viver
Promete que iras permanecer
Para sempre no meu coracao;
Nao dando espaco ah solidao!

2 vezes

Sentir sem discricao...
Chorar, sentir paixao...
Querer, chorar por mais...
Amar, querer demais.
Acreditar, amar um amor cego.
Perder, nao sei se va acreditar, nao nego.
Escolher, perder-te nao posso.
Esquecer, escolher o que eh nosso.
Pedir, esquecer-te e ir de seguida...
Fechar, peco que me des a tua vida.
______, Fechar esta escrita...
Que ate ficou bonita.

[Bem acho que aquele espaco teria de escrever "Ficar"] LOL

Com tanto desejo... [minha nossa]

Desejar ser desejosa
para desejar o desejo
de te desejar
sendo tu o desejo
de desejar
ser desejosa
para desejar-te.

Destruir? Pra que?

Nos precisamos de viver,
Nos precisamos de cantar,
Tambem precisamos de ter...
Ar para respirar!
Esse ar e um composto
Feito por algum genio
Que introduziu
Nos nossos pulmoes oxigenio.
Mas esse ar esgota
E podemos assim morrer...
Assim por cada arvore que se corta
Eh um "bocado de ar a desaparecer".
E o homem que nao eh deus
Sendo assim, um simples mortal
O que eh certo e vai acontecer
Com este comportamento anormal,
Tudo vai deixar de ser...
Para nunca mais existir
Ja ai nao pode haver mais mal,
Vai-se tudo extinguir.
Por isso devemos pensar
Como parar o carrossel
E tentar,
Tudo isto evitar...
E parar para pensar
Sempre que se gasta uma folha de papel.

Porque?

Porque ha tantas lagrimas a enxugar,
Tantos tristes a consolar,
Tantos frutos a colher,
Tantas vozes a escutar,
Tantos sorrisos a ver,
Tantas emocoes a partilhar,
Tanta felicidade a oferecer,
Tantas noites a iluminar,
Tanto perdao a conceder,
Tanta paz a construir,
Tanta justica a usufruir,
Tantos pobres a libertar,
Tantas portas a abrir,
Tantos abracos a dar,
Tanta perseguicao a suportar,
Tanto odio a negar,
Tanto amor por receber,
E tanto amor a conquistar.
Tanta alegria a anunciar,
E tanto a querer,...
Se assim se desejar!

Ha tempo para tudo!

Ha tempo para nascer, tempo para morrer.
Tempo para destruir, tempo para edificar.
Tempo parar chorar, tempo para rir.
Tempo para se afligir, tempo para dancar.
Tempo para espalhar pedras e tempo para as juntar.
Tempo para dar abracos, tempo para se afastar deles.
Tempo para adquirir, tempo para perder.
Tempo para guardar, tempo para deitar fora.
Tempo para rasgar, tempo para coser.
Tempo para calar, tempo para falar.
Tempo para amar, tempo para odiar.
Tempo para a guerra e tempo para a paz.

Niko <3

So today, I'm going to talk about

someone else very important in my life.
I've mentioned:

- My grandfather
- My madrinha (godmother)
- My little niece, Juliana
- My mom...
- My dad...

I'm taking the time to talk about someone,
not less important than any of those mentioned above...
... and her name is: Nicole Brown. (Niko)

So this young lady is a jewel.
She goes from being beautiful, talented to extremely intelligent.
She is all around, great.
She's the best friend that anyone could ask for.
The best sister... that anyone would want.
The best niece... that I could ever have.

I could really talk about her all day.
Because there is so much to say.
But words would always fall short.
Nothing can describe her greatness.

It's her sense of humor,
It's her personality,
Her character,
Kindness,
....
It's her love for the people around her,
Her love for animals,
Her love for life...
... that always brings a smile to my face.
She really amazes me.
I see so much potential in her.
She always manages to brighten my day.
It's whether teaching me something...
... or be as random as me ...

"You know that song lean like a cholo?
It could be 'lean like a cello...
Elbows up side to side
Elbows up side to side..."



LOL!! (this is an inside joke)

She plays a Cello.
And the song has nothing to do with Cello's.
(I guess you'd have to be there... )

All this to say... She is the best as they come.
And one of the best things life had to offer.
And if anyone messes with her,
Hurts her in any way,
I am here.
And I WILL hurt you.

[stabs the hand doll] ---> inside joke

~ Don't give up! ~

I have such a feeling of hope today...
... Like I could just die with a purpose.

We read about love. We see it in movies.
But it's so rare to encounter someone in real life that makes you feel deeply in thought over what they say to you:
"Not one day goes by without me missing or thinking of her."
I could of cried when I heard this because I KNEW it was real.
The question is: Did she?
We get sad over stories that are invented by our human minds; and I stop and care to think about all the people that end up losing someone in real life? Whether to someone else or to something else (whatever that might be). Love grows founder. But is that the ultimate task of love? Loss? Having to let go?
"You shouldn't make people a necessity..."
- Just in case they have to embark in another journey.
But how wonderful it is, to do so?
Having someone that moves you, makes you a better person, brings out the best in you, someone that doesn't need you to go down memory lane or doesn't tell you what to do because you can take care of yourself without no ones supervision. Someone that tells you how much you move them, how you change them, how you make them a man/woman, just by loving them.
Someone that is eternally grateful to you.
It's when you are sad, unsure or you have no faith... and you see yourself through their eyes. And you see how much of a honor it is to be who you are... and the privilege to have met them.
It's feeling lucky. It's being someone's life...
... And if that person departs, your life falls to dust. To chaos.
Nothing matters... Because Everything is gone.
Seeing & listening to someone that has once loved talking about their lost one, it's like listening to sigur ros. It gives you hope to have found them, but it's all so sad.
You can almost see the love in their eyes, I'm sure I just didn't try hard enough.
You sense it in your skin every time their voice trembles...
... all there is left are memories? No. It's love!
To a friend out there that is having a hard time today...
Let me tell you:
Don't be sad. Do not. You should not be sad.
Because it is better to love and lose than not loving at all.

I wish I could be someones Amber.

~ The Measure of a Human ~

4 Measurements? [smile]

Success is entirely subjective. If you define what success means to you, you're not measuring up to anybody's standards but your own.

Ambition trumps ability. When it comes to reaching the beachhead of success, passion is a stronger tide than raw talent.

Self-deprecation is the most endearing type of humor. It sets people at ease; just be careful not to overuse it or you won't be taken seriously.

Regardless of your size, learn to empathize with the little guy. It'll broaden your thinking, keep you humble, and ensure that you always have the proper perspective. The ability to examine issues from above and below is priceless.