* Why? * - long as hell -

Babe, what's been bothering you so?
Don't you love me anymore?
Has my loving not been sufficient?
Is there any rationale that's making you unsure?
I love you more than any other girl ever could.
... It's a worn out proclamation, I know.
But your love is an intoxication,
Each instant I back out from us,
I wind up begging for you some more...
And from a minus, you urge to a plus.
The best thing about tonight is that we are not fighting.
It couldn't be that we have been this way before,
I know you don't think that I am trying,
I know you're wearing thin down to the core...
...But hold your last breath!
It's not my intention, to make you upset.
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,
Again, over again...
Don't make me change my mind!
I won't live to see another day,
I swear it's true...
A guy like you it's impossible to find.
So here's a clue;
Our love doesn't seem now, to have the same meaning,
We were over, when my each pound was kneeling,
So don't wake me if I'm dreaming,
Don't reminisce me, if your heart is screaming,
Don't screech for me, if your thoughts are still leaning.
Don't call me, if your insecurity is increasing.
Think about it...
Seriously, think about it...
Maybe you don't need me, our relation is already blazing.
Maybe you don't need me... aren't these thoughts amazing?
Because your voice will decay,
But my feelings for you will remain.
And since your dreams won't portray,
I just have to say...
My feelings for you, weren't in vain.
I can't live with pain and suffering for long, neither can you.
I can live with happiness and innocence, for that is need two.
I just can't believe you're not there for me,
But turns out you never were.
Just took awhile for me to see...
I break myself over and over and over again...
Only to rebuild my Self, especially for you,
And then I break again.
But I won't give up being built,
And I won't give up, us.
I hammer myself in my dreams,
I try to mold my dreams to perfection,
But perfection seems so impossible.
I never have the satisfaction...
I'm always not good enough, that's what it seems to me...
But how can perfection be true?
If I am what you want me to be?
And nothing is your fault.
No matter what I do,
No matter what I say...
I will always love you.
Because days will come and go,
But my feelings for you are forever,
No matter how many rocks I'll throw...
Love is forever and ever.
One last kiss, before I go,
Make one last wish, before it shows,
That your one last touch, that no one knows...
I'll reminisce, when we're paired no more.
You are stuck on me, like a gore.
(thinking)
He's more than a man,
And this is more than love,
The reason that the sky is blue,
The clouds are rolling in,
Because I'm gone again,
And to him I just can't be true.
I feel the dream in me expire,
And there's no one left to blame it on,
I hear you label me a liar,
'cause I can't seem to get this through.
You say it's over, I can sigh again, yeah,
Why try to stay sober when I'm dying here.
And I am aware now...
Everything is going to be fine one day...
I know, I know how!
Because it's too late, I'm in hell,
I am prepared, everyone is going to be alright.
One day too late: just as well...
Hopefully everyone will be out of my sight.
Conceivably, now, I see the picture clear,
I can feel my feelings expire, and it's just a mere.
Matter of time, before I let you go,
Strive coming back to me, it will be a NO!
Good times, good thoughts: They seem way far,
I wish I could let the pain stay buried inside,
Maybe have a friend-in-depression strum a little guitar,
Maybe we don't talk, but at least I'll have my friends by my side.
All the time, I wish I would lay to rest, forever,
All this time I thought I'd be the best for you, but never,
Again will I think the same about you.
... I know it's not true ...
But maybe I was meant to be just another friend,
Maybe then, the pains of missing you,
Would finally filter through!
If not an open diary,
Then at least be a torn page,
From a book, for me,
So that I read you...
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road,
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go,
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time,
Oh and no need for you to cry.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right,
I hope you had the time of your life...
And so much for a goddamn wife.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind,
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time...
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial...
For what it's worth it was worth the while.
I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don't believe it makes me real...
I thought it'd be easy,
But no one believes me.
It might sound cheesy...
But I meant all the things I said.
This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don't know how it got so bad...
How can someone be so sad?
Sometimes it's so crazy...
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have...
You know I am not lazy...
And believe me... it's in my soul.
I'd say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
What I'm trying to let you know!
Am I better off on my own?
I don't want to hear, I don't want to know,
Please don't say "sorry",
I've heard it all before,
And I can take care of myself,
And I can't take it anymore.
Please don't say "forgive me".
I've seen it all...
I already see the call.
I am not half the woman I thought I was...
Save your words because you've gone to far...
I've listened to your lies and all your stories...
And it's all going down to memories.
I'm not half the woman I'd like to be...
Just leave me alone... set me free.
Don't explain yourself because talk is cheap,
There's more important things than what you speak...
You stayed because I made it so convenient...
Don't explain yourself, you'll never see...
What I am... or what I'm trying to be!
I know my days are numbered,
I've been in and out of this phase,
But these days keep passing by,
It's all this intensive craze!
Good never comes my way...
And all I'm doing is make my mind sway.
I try to sit back and relax,
I would think of something good, I would...
Something else or something pure...
I can't but I know I should...
... Maybe that will be my cure.
No more waiting for something better to come along,
It's much easier to change me than it's to change them all...
Things I should have said, I should of been strong!
I think I'll need to shed all my skin and start again.
After all... All I have is things to gain.
... Oh, things I should of said,
Things that I regret...
And I regret some more.
How could I do such things since we met?
If it is you that I adore?
And every turn I made was wrong.
I haven't smiled sincerely in so long.
The memories I once had...
Weren't all ... entirely bad?

Why did you have to go with the tide?
Why?
Why aren't you by my side?
Why?
Why couldn't everything be fine?
Why?
Why can't it start again with "once upon a time..."?
Why?
Why couldn't our story last?
Why?
Why does it have to remain in the past?