~ What you don't know, doesn't hurt you. ~

(Toronto, Lakeshore, 2007)

There's a saying that goes:
"What you don't know, doesn't hurt you."

How true is this?
If I hurt of longing to know
where we came from
and
why we're here!?

M Theory, how beautifully said.
Parallel Universes.
Membranes.
Well done...
But where does the membrane come from?

[Anyways, I'm losing track of why I'm writing this.]

What's better?
Leaving things unsaid?
Or full honesty?
(if honesty itself can be hurtful)
I wonder...

Then it carries us to another question;
Whom occults the truth, lies?
Even if for someone else's own good?
For your own good as well!?
(intriguing, indeed...)

Things left unsaid often with the weight of the world,
years and knowledge...
... become a burden.
Become uneasy to be carried on.
But how much weight can you handle?

How much pride can you swallow?
How much truth can you hide?
How much lies can you hold?
How much love can you give?
And how much joy can you obtain?

Have you realize that the number of things that you do know
are insignificant to the ones you don't know.
That the numbers of things for which you care about
are insignificant to the one's you don't.
That what you know is IRRELEVANT. (nothing)

Let determination be part of ours lives.

Coldplay - LOST (acoustic)

- Coldplay Lyrics

One of the best songs ever!
It's playing on my blog right now,
so y'all can listen to it.

"Coldplay - Lost" (acoustic version)

It's simple, it's passionate, it's... brilliant.
>>> At the stores now... <<<
some advertisement, they deserve it. (lol)

~ Age, Vive ~

"Chega sempre a hora
em que não basta apenas protestar:
após a filosofia, a acção é indispensavel!"

oOo Vai lá... levanta-te Vanessa! oOo

~ Vela ~

Eu finjo que nao penso em ti, mas ja me doi a cabeca

De tantas as vezes que me pairaste no cerebro, como hoje.
Ate parece que me falta algum parafuso, alguma peca...
O amor para mim e um sentimento que brota do nada e sempre foge,
E nunca encontra um final feliz, como no teactro ou cinema.
O amor, eh sempre um grande dilema!
Sempre vem na altura menos oportuna...
Brilhando, como a maior fortuna...
Como tanto gosta "ele" de se testar,
Como se nao houvesse nada mais para amar?
Eh em dias como este que me doem os dentes de os tanto ranger,
Rocando-os uns contra os outros para disfarcar toda a dor.
Mas a fisica, por mais exaustiva que seja, nao supera a que vem do interior
E sinto a raiva fervilhar enquanto gemo para todos se irem "foder".
Apetecia-me tomar morfina para adormecer tudo o que e sentimento:
Deixar-me-ia dormir e arranjar consolo naquele doce abatimento.
Os olhos ja cerrados, a frenetica impressao ja entorpecida
– E no meu profundo delirio tu beijar-me-ias
como ah Bela Adormecida…

~ Top Favorite 126 Movies ~

1. "Apocalypse" [1st time to movie theater, Graciosa 2000]
   
2. "The Contract"
3. "The Mist"
   
4. "Snow White"
   
5. "American Gangster"
6. "Butterfly Effect" (I, II, III)
7. "Saw" (I, II, III, VI)
8. "Lord of The Rings"
9. "Notebook" (I've never seen it... but I know I'll like it)
10. "Superbad"
11. "Missed Call"
12. "The Atonement"
13. "Juno"
14. "Shrek" (I, II, III)
15. "Saving Private Ryan"
16. "Blackhawk Down"
17. "Napoleon Dynamite"
18. "I am Legend"
19. "Dan in Real Life"
20. "Enchanted"
21. "Reign Over me"
22. "The Great Debaters"
23. "Martian Child"
24. "Charlie Wilson's War"
25. "Sweeney Todd"
26. "Knocked Up"
27. "Michael Clayton"
28. "Hannibal Rising"
29. "The number 23"
30. "Amelie"
31. "Letters from Iwo Jima"
32. "Apocalypto"
33. "10.000 B.C."
34. "The Incredible Hulk"
35. "Jumper"
36. "Get Smart"
37. "40 yr old virgin"
38. "The Love Guru"
39. "WALL-E"
40. "Wanted"
41. "The Dark Knight"
42. "Hancock"
43. "Hellboy II"
44. "Little Miss Sunshine"
45. "Kit Kittredge: An American Girl"
46. "Blades of Glory"
47. "Semi-Pro"
48. "Wedding Crashers"
49. "Zoolander"
50. "Oceans 13"
51. "Bucket List"
52. "As good as it gets"
53. "Anger Management"
54. "The Benchwarmers"
55. "School for Scoundrels"
    
56. "Mama's Boy"
57. "27 Dresses"
58. "30 days of night"
59. "You don't mess with the Zohan"
60. "What happens in Vegas"
61. "Alvin and the Chipmunks"
62. "The Bee Movie"
63. "Happy Feet"
64. "21"
65. "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
66. "Evan Almighty"
67. "Night at the museum"
68. "The Ruins"
69. "The happening" (was alright)
70. "Leatherheads"
71. "Married Life"
72. "Made of Honor"
73. "Sex and the city"
74. "Euro trip"
75. "Crank"
76. "Chaos"
77. "The transporter"
78. "The texas chainsaw massacre"
79. "Summer catch"
80. "Elizabeth Town"
81. "Home of the Brave"
82. "Illusionist"
83. "I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry"
84. "Next"
85. "Untraceable"
    
86. "Southland Tales"
87. "Jersey Girl"
88. "My best friends wedding"
89. "Click"
90. "Grandma's boy"
91. "Joe Dirt"
92. "Bulletproof"
93. "Bubble boy"
94. "The Animal"
95. "Die Hard (I,II)
96. "Matrix" (I,II, +/- III) - at the time, I loved it.
97. "How to lose a guy in 10 days"
98. "Pirates of the Caribbeans"
    
99. "Spanglish"
100. "X-men"
101. "The Devil Wears Prada"
102. "Pursuit of Happiness"
103. "thank you for smoking"
104. "Jesus Camp"
105. "Dream Girls"
106. "Borat"
107. "The Departed"
108. "King Kong"
109. "Lord of War"
110. "Ghost rider"
111. "World Trade Center"
112. "The weather man"
113. "Matchstick man"
114. "City of angels"
115. "Closer"
116. "The Aviator"
117. "Lost in Translation"
     
118. "The Longest Yard"
119. "Strange Wilderness"
120. "City of God"
121. "Finding Nemo"
122. "Pinocchio"
123. "Definitely, Maybe"
124. "Cleaner"
125. "We own the night"
     
126. "P.S.: I love you."

~ A espera ~

Melhor estaria a olhar o horizonte
Lembra-me de praia, calor...
Mas ao destruir uma ponte
La se foi a Vitoria, o amor.

Eh engracado como tudo muda
Com uma accao repentina...
Agora sou a Vanessa "Acriancada"
Antes era, "Maria Albertina".

(risos)

Num instante mata-se...
Noutro... morre-se...
Outrora, amava-se.

Hoje? Sobrevive-se.
O tempo cura tudo? Era?
Bem, entao fico ah espera.

Peca ( com c de cedilha! )

Dou por mim com fome
Fraca, frustrada, fodida,
Nao sei que decisao tome
Que rumo de a minha vida!

As vezes quase consigo prever
O que o futuro ira trazer.
Como me perco e fico em branco...
Com medo de amar tanto...

Fico parada como de costume
Pego num cigarro...
Sentada sozinha no carro...

E fico a observar o lume!
Tao pequeno e fuma-se tao depressa...
Como a vida, que nao passa de uma Peca.

~ ConseGuir ~

Viver um dia...
Nao eh mau, ha coisas piores,
Como morrer entrestecida,
Com o pesar das coisas que poderiam ter sido melhores.

Ha coisas que nao entendo...
Que penso, procuro, e nao encontro;
Por mais que tente, nao compreendo...
A minha vida, resume-se num desencontro.

Teria sido facil...
Fosse eu agil...
Teria assim encontrado

O que ah muito procurado.
Teria sido simples e perspicaz...
Questao eh: Serei eu ainda capaz?

I am a ...

There are people that like to preach,

and some that like to use statements.
Usually, preachers, tend to do the self-pity speech,
and victimize their own self over the world.
In fact, we all know, that's NOT how it truly is.

People that make statements,
do it with conviction.
They know what they are talking about,
so, they just say it. How it is.
Whether you like it or not.

I'm a statement person.
So I'll leave all the "blah blah blah"
And the "whah whah whah"
For WHO CARES!
And I'll state this:

I AM A ________?!

(I'm sure you weren't expecting this...)

~ Steps from geek to... ME! ~

Never sleep with curls! HURTS!
Always blow dry your hair, even after you sleep
with those damn things in your hair all night.

After washing your face and applying some lotion...
YOU START LOOKING BETTER! lol
But is it good enough with those curls still in your hair?

Remove the curls... OBVIOUSLY! lol
Then you see some improvements... (mwahaha)
If there aren't any (improvements)... call your doctor.

After you remove the curls...
and wash your face with proactiv (LOL)
You will see some changes within the next 30 days!

(huh?)

~HappiNESS~

(mini-golf, June 17th, first time)

Alright, so my name is Vanessa...
And because of that people tend to call me:
"Nessa", "Nessy", "Ness" (most called)

I came to realize that my name: "Ness",
is the end of quite a few words (around 3000)! lol

Happiness, is just one of them.
(Eg.: Sweetness, greatness, etc)

This is one of my hobbies, photography.
Not just take pictures, but collage them,
modify them... (that's me)!

I'll add a few poems later on,
this is it, for now!

~ Holding The Shoe ~

I never asked for this to happen,
oh I'm the fairest of them all,
Forbidden fruit you climbed,
With weak knees you took the fall;
In time this wound will heal,
A scar will take it's place,
You'll hold that slipper empty,
It's shimmer holds my face.
It belongs not to a princess,
For a princess I can not be,
Yet yours I am eternal,
I'll follow the yellow brick road to you,
The slipper will not break,
But will it ever fit,
It's glass is laced with hope,
It's shine may fade a bit,
It stands the test of time...
It fits no one but me,
But no one holds the shoe but you...
Fairy tales have happy endings,
What happens when they are true?

~ Lived a Tornado Touch Down ~

This post is not going to be long!
I just wanted to post, to remember... one day.
Yesterday night (11/06/2008), there was a Tornado warning.

Unlike last week, that they hit all around me,
BUT didn't quite hit the city where I'm at...
... This time, there was a TORNADO TOUCH DOWN!

Started with NO NOISE. Whatsoever.
(I remember looking out the window and saying
"Blah, no wind, it's not going to even be here" - 5 seconds later
I was grabbing a blanket, a pillow, notebook, flashlight, etc) LOL!!

I also thought my neighbors were vacuuming before it started!
(That part was funny.. I thought I was going crazy);

On the radio they said it this morning, and they said it really well:
We always hear it on the news, we watch it in the movies,
But seriously? Even being on a tornado alley, we never really think
it's really going to happen? And so fast? And you have nothing at hand?

IT'S CRAZY. Such a bad feeling inside.
The lightening, was crazy... it's suppose to be 1000 and some seconds apart. The sky was constantly pink... (it was so creepy)!

4 people died. Lots of them injured.
Some houses, GONE!
(like, not even a little bit... I mean, THE WHOLE HOUSE!)
Cars thrown around... trees yanked!
Schools got hit... all of them are damaged.

It touched down in Salina... stopped there!
Touched down in Junction City... stopped there!
Touched down in Manhattan... stopped there!

THE TORNADOES WERE GOING "LOCOS" (spanish for crazy) lol

It was 1 mile and a half wide! (the tornado)
And it was an F4 (worse is a F5)

Rob (my "godfather") left a message on the phone:
"They are touching all south from you but go downstairs, with a blanket..."
What he meant was... they are going your way! He just said it in a nice way!
But I didn't get too worried...

Funny, is I had several people calling in order for me to go...
... to the bathroom DOWNSTAIRS, with a blanket and a pillow over my head!
But I'm stubborn, I stayed upstairs the whole time... playing XBOX360!
... Until THE LIGHTS STARTED GOING OFF, EVERY 2 SECONDS!
And the scary part, the scary part... you want to know?
THE SIRENS...

You DO NOT want to hear those "bitches" at 10pm!
Especially if it's the ones around your house...
It was like some Silent Hill "shit" (no joke) LOL

I'm not even going to lie, I was scared.
'Cause I was alone.
And the noise, and the sirens just make you even more nervous.
Then there's the risk of getting hurt...
Or all your clothes and shoes that are in the upstairs floor to be gone... (funny but true)
But if I thought that I was going to die?
Not even for a second. Why? (you probably wonder)

1st: Vanessa, sounds SO MUCH better than Dorothy (I'd sue my mom if I had that name!)
2nd: I'm so much prettier than the bitch!
3rd: My red shoes, are so much BETTER, EXPENSIVE and PROVOCATIVE! (lol)
4th: "There's no place like home (bis)" ... like WHAT THE FUCK? Where's the ORIGINALITY IN THAT? At least I made my shit sound like some "blair witch project" scene:

"Oh my god, it's happening. What's that? Oh it's here... AHHHHH!"


Anyways, this is my horrific story.
Hope you enjoyed it.

P.S.: I was being such a drama queen, all my friends on Xbox360 were WORRIED! Especially after watching the news, they all left messages ... (You don't want to hear me scared, the funniest thing EVER!)

P.S.2: I kept on singing the whole time, not to hear the thunder... and tried my best not to keep looking out the window! ('cause like I said, the sky was creepy.)

P.S.3: Even after it was gone, I was so afraid, I couldn't fall asleep, and every time I closed my eyes, 1 minute later, I was opening them! Fell asleep at 4am... 6:30am I was up and around.

P.S.4: I was hungry yesterday, but I didn't dare to go to the kitchen and grab something the whole time; AND I'M STILL HUNGRY!
So ... I'm out.

P.S.5: Remember in the beginning of the post what I wrote? (you don't? Neither did I);
"This post is not going to be long" - LIES!!! (lol)

* Wedding *

With nothing else to do and searching all over yahoo and Google...
I came to realize I have a trend for Wedding dresses.
So, I will be showing a few of the ones I liked the most,
plus, two of the "hair dos" I liked. (one up and one down).

Here it is:

I really like this "hair do" for many reasons!
Besides looking beautiful, the hair is not completely down but it's not up also...
So it gives that look... of long hair... pretty lady... (la la la)


Even tho I love the hair do before this one, I would probably would go for this.
Looks absolutely AMAZING!
Like a flower almost... gorgeous!



I like this dress for many reasons (hate the purse... why would you need one?)
Don't enjoy the necklace either or the flowers.
The dress is simple... but it is also elegant. It's definitely something that I'd look at.
Not quite "perfect" tho... =]



I like this dress! Have actually seen someone with a dress just like this!
It looks great. Very white, plain & simple... almost like you are wrapped around a sheet.
Very interesting, indeed.
I would definitely look at it... and maybe try it... buy it?
Hum... it's slightly to plain for me.
But I really, really like it.



This is the perfect wedding dress.
I shall make one just the same! LOL
(Although, I dislike the colors);
I'd make the bottom what the upper color is now...
And make the top a pure white.
And [tan ran] there you have it people...
The Perfect Wedding Dress.
____________________________________________

I was going to show some tiaras and bouquets...
But I couldn't find it on Google out of 50 pages anything I liked.
So... I'll just leave it at that.

~ She and He ~

She would cry
He would laugh.

She would talk
He wouldn't listen.

She would suffer
He wouldn't care.

She would believe
He would lie.

She would wait
He wouldn't show up.

She would smile
He would laugh AT her.

She wanted something serious
He was a big joke.

She would believe in everything he would say
He said the same thing to everyone.

She wanted him forever
He wanted her for certain moments.

She would give herself
He would lose himself.

She would say she loved him
He would run his mouth.

She wanted him.
He wanted any.

In the end...

... He discovered she was Unique!

And...

... She found out he was just another.