I will NOT be back...

I got here feeling alone
But Ill leave here feeling worse...
I thought I could talk to him, be the first;

But he is about done.

~~*~~
At least, I know he loved me his own way
Even with me running away.
Im sure my departure will be pretty bad
Since he is already so freaking sad.

~~*~~
Everything looks upside down
Everyone has a constantly frown.
They are all so hurt, all so lost
They will try to be happy at your cost.

~~*~~

They will make you feel mad...
They will make you wish what you had.

These people here all look so degrading,
My love and my hope for all them is fading.

~~*~~
No nanny, no grandfather.
No dad, no mother.

I dont want to tear, I dont want to pry...
But my dad for me, he will never die.

~~*~~
I look in his eyes, he is oh so sad,
No wonder why he was always so mad.
Do I see in him what he sees in me?
´cause emptyness in him, is all I see.

~~*~~

Today I know what he felt then!
My heart just asks, when did start, when?

When did he lose his willing to give?
When did he lose his willing to live?

~~*~~
I question alot...
And thats how I preserve everything Ive got.
I wonder if mom is now so cold
Over everything she has been told?

~~*~~
Did her love for him fade?
She forgive him from what he has done and said?
I wonder if it was him that took her kindness...
When she got rid of her love blindness?

~~*~~
She now sees him clear
She speaks 2 him with no fear.
Ive forgiven what he has done already,
Bring a new beginning, I am ready!

~~*~~
I leave this time with no regret
I have my mind and heart all set.
I cant stay here or I will vanish..
Since with no heart a person will perish.

~~*~~
Enough hurt, Enough tears
Enough madness, enough fears.
I leave with a smile...
Because I will not be back for awhile.