Thursday, January 22, 2009

Update*


We are all the equal, with qualities & flaws; But I'm unique because none of us is the same therefore there is no one like me.

I'm one of those people that still believes in love, it makes our heartbeat accelerate, it makes our heart beat; It's one of the best sensations in life: Being in Love.
Romanticism prevails in this century, as long as I exist. (And no I'm not talking about Valentines Day, where people pretend they get along for the day; and gifts are exchanged, usually flowers, old-fashion romanticism, & teddy bears that soon will be in charge to sleep with you, be your support through the night and be there to wipe away your tears);

I live for my friends. I love my family.

I know I'm able to love for all eternity the "right" man... but I also know that sometimes "love" is not eternal...

I'm not sure I'm happy. I know I've been happy before and I know I'll be happy again... I'm just afraid of being happy without even knowing it.

My dream is to own the moon, sleep in Pluto and jump from Universe to Universe to make sure all "me's" preserve the good moments I didn't. I wish I could fly as often as I dream I can/do, I'd do my best to visit every place, at least, on Earth.

Death... It's so overrated. I would like to plan mine... So I knew when to tell all the one's I love how much they mean to me (I'm sure we'll meet again in whatever form we become) and I could die in some place nice. (Just somewhere on a mountain looking over the horizon...);

I want a son. I want to know what it's like to be a mother. What it's like to know someone else but me. To care for someone more than myself.

I adore the night, the ocean, the sky, the stars, the moon... The sky is not the same "here"
(United States). Not like home. Even the moon doesn't reflect the sun's light just as bright. The stars seem like they are going away of how far they seem here. :(

I miss home.

I enjoy having fun... A few drinks... Friends... Dance... Dance the night away! (Good Music or Bad Music, doesn't matter as long as the right people are around, nothing else is needed...)

I love being at home... I'm a hardcore gamer (Video Games are just so addicting and I LOVE IT!) ~ Reading, Writing, just laying on the couch watching movies or just chatting with those that care.

I believe there's something beyond human mind out there. Not Christendom (Christianism) or any other religion. We are not chance. (even tho we live by it)
Religion was created with a "good" (whatever that might be) fund BUT used to control the mass.

I fight and fight some more even tho sometimes I quit, because sometimes not everything depends on us.

I hate being manipulated by feelings,... but obviously I also let myself get manipulated by them or I never would of felt.
I don't seem too much into sentimentalisms because not everyone is to be trusted, but I have them... I have all those beautiful feelings waiting to burst away.

I might seem full of myself, I don't laugh as often as I did/should; But I'm nice, with a good sense of humor and I'm pretty simple with my own complicated ways.

Laugh, I love to laugh... it's like a release of bad energy.

I couldn't live without those conversations that never have conclusions... the ones that simply make us think about everything and nothing. Theory or not... I enjoy the thought.

Sometimes I need to be alone... but I hate feeling alone.

I'm honest. I say what I feel, probably sometimes I shouldn't do it, but I do it!

I adore crazyness, I give myself to moments, have fun with them & I take the bargain of the consequences with a smile... since sometimes things don't go quite as we plan.
I barely cry. I don't get cranky often enough. ~ at least, for a woman..

I used to be very inconstant, the past two years I grew so much; Today, is slightly different, things happen and I learn with them.. instead of whinning over them & stopping in the present looking constantly at a past, that barely existed.

I change as things change in my life.. I tend to adapt well. But I don't conform myself with it.

I'm not perfect... I commit mistakes... But that's me! And guess what? I love myself.
Self-esteem is my best allie, if we can't love ourselves we can't love another.

I don't consider myself a loser... because I know you can't always win. However, you have to know how to win but best to know how to lose...

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