I just read your profile description today. I know I'm somewhat emotional today, but it brought tears to my eyes. Which I attribute to the fact that you matter a great deal to me.
I notice the past tense, I hope that it was intentional.
From my perspective, you are a jewel, a true diamond, a woman that i am honored to know and I never want to not know; a force for goodness and happiness and beauty and joy in the world. You make me smile, and I know I'm not the only one.
Who knows what we are destined for? I feel like we are all randomly created and placed upon this earth and somehow, we must create a substantive and consequential existence from the chaos.
I do that by finding wonderful souls like you, and hanging on with both hands.
Maybe this is all by design. This is what we're supposed to do with life. To find those people who help complete us and uplift us and surprise us and show us true unbridled joy. And with them explore the universe, small motes in a vast sea.
Most people have their eyes closed to the wonder of the universe. They possess no natural buoyancy, no awareness of the wonder around them. They cling to whatever happens to be nearby and sink like a stone into the depths.
They'll certainly cling to you. Especially. They feel your buoyancy and crave it. Even though they don't understand it.
And you, with your giving heart, you want to help them all stay afloat. No matter the effort for you.
I guess what I'm saying is you can't be a mistake. Because you matter so much to me, and all the other people you've touched.
But maybe, some of the people you've touched have no desire to be buoyant. They want to drag you down to the depths. (Sound like anyone you know.....?) Those are the ones to let go of. They are destined for a miserable existence, until they learn to float. If they ever learn.
