20 Weird Things About Me ~ Try It ~

**RULE 1: Each player of this game starts off with 20 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. Try it out. Make me laugh!**

#1 Every time I feel like something is crawling on me, I always think it's a spider. Usually it is. And those are the only "Effers" I totally despise.

#2 I've been all over the United States, Canada and Europe. (just because)

#3 I broke my nose when I was in 4th grade, because I was running away from this girl that was pretending to be a bull (don't ask me where I hit my nose, it's too embarrassing).

#4 When I sneeze, I always do it twice.

#5 When I have hiccups (or as normally pronounced "HICK-up" regardless of spelling), I always take 7 gulps of juice/water and it goes away. Magically.

#6 I've only been in love once.

#7 I can barely keep up a serious conversation. I have to always say a joke. In the end, in between or both.

#8 I always pee before I go to bed and when I get up. (to much info?)

#9 I'm always cold. (I've been with a sweater on the beach!)

#10 I don't like mirrors to much. Or lightening.

#11 I'm agnostic. (or just unsure, lost,...)

#12 I believe I know nothing.

#13 I dislike Shakespeare.

#14 I used to be chubby when I was a kid. (not fat...)

#15 If I had to give up sense it would be "taste".

#16 I always have to fix my hair after I take a shower.

#17 I brush, floss and waterpik my teeth everyday.

#18 I always wear something pink.

#19 I wish I could fly.

#20 I'm still searching for god.


** If you don't have 20 weird things about yourself, name... 15? 10? 5?

~ Without Hope ~

Words fall to dust
Actions fall short...
We all do as we must
Leaving nothing to last resort.

We all tend to dare
In things that don't matter...
We swear forever...
Even when we don't care.

We pretend so much...
Like love, honesty & things as such...
But we all have a clue...
That all that... is not true.

With or without you...
I must do what I got to do.
Whether you are there or not...
Me, is all I've got.

So let's stop living in La La Land
Let's all stop playing pretend.
I know and you know, it's untrue;
I don't love me, I can't love you.

[written YEARS ago... well written but so sad...]

Tenho dito...

Eu gosto de mim.

~ Behind every curtain... ~

Someone told me not too long ago that life is a theater.
A theater on which we act with no rehearsals.
Some people live on stage.
Others live backstage.

Worse of all, are those two that open and close the curtains.
They know exactly what to do,
but they limit themselves, sticking to what they know,
and feel comfortable doing.
Opening and closing those damn curtains, every time.
And when those curtains open... there it comes:
Life... Hope... Meaning of doing something useful...
But then, the curtains close...
And there it goes; all the purpose. All the effort. Everything.

Mental note: You cannot live your life being the rope person.
You cannot dedicate your life just allowing everyone and everything
shine but yourself and the person across the stage from you.

Eventually, you have to let go the ropes, both of you...
Start, your own scene.
It might be so hard, unexperienced...
But if you are going to do it, just do it!
Allow yourselves to live...
And if there's no tomorrow...
Oh well, today was written and played by you.

~ Puzzle ~

If we are all different how can two make a "whole"?
Think of it as a puzzle.
The puzzle is the "Bigger Picture".
The pieces are the "People".
Some pieces will never connect with other pieces;
Some others fit just fine.
With time every piece has an important roll,
even tho, some pieces will get used, abused...
... others get lost even destroyed!
(Some are just bad manufactured!
Not their fault, just happened to come in the box like that!)
But even all those pieces... that aren't so perfect
as some others, we can still tell what the bigger picture
is and the whole moral of all of them.
If all the pieces can work somehow as a "whole",
attaching themselves for a better vision of everything...
That's what they were made for.

It's Like I've Never Known Anything Else...

(Summer 08 - July)

I may not see you as often as I like
I may not get to hold you in my arms through the night...
But deep in my heart, I truly know
You Are The One...
That Special Someone...
That makes my eyes glow.
20 years and 7 months ago,
I whispered in your ear:
"You'll have to wait for me to grow
In 20 years, I will appear."
So for all those years, for you, I prayed.
Because this is what you said:
"So close your eyes and sleep to dream
I'm by your side, no words to speak,
If you wake up, oh please, don't freak.
If someone's here and it's not me, do not scream."
The days certainly didn't allow us to see each other,
But memories and hope did;
And so my heart bid:
That we wouldn't be able to live with another.
My eyes couldn't see you...
My soul said: "I do".
My heart was yours Forever.
It never forgot you, ever.
Every time I missed you
I did not go far...
I looked inside my heart...
"There you are!" - never apart.
Today, I'm certain, listen to what I say;
You are the sun in my day...
The waves in my ocean...
The wind in my sky...
You are all that 'causes emotion.
Without you? I would die.
So there's absolutely, no doubt
None of us ever forgot!
It was with us all along...
Sometimes lonely, sometimes strong.
You came to Earth before me
I told you: "The faster you'll go...
... the faster you'll be back, you'll see!"
The process was a bit slow.
But here we are,
My Emperor, My Tsar...
Forever, you and me.
I'm sure you'll agree.
We forsaken all the grime.
And we shall be, for the rest of time.
When I am down and I start feeling sad...
I know you are there and then I'm glad!
I am happy I found someone so true...
An honesty that helps and gives me a clue.
How to solve my problems when I don't know where to turn...
With your help, from my mistakes I will learn.
You are there for me each and every day
You make me smile and laugh in your little way.
I can't thank you enough for always being there...
I know I can trust you, I see that you care.
I love you lots as you already know.
I'm here for you, cheer you up when you're low.
I'm glad I found you and I'll always hold you near,
You will never be alone as for I am ALWAYS here.
Thank You, for never being apart;
I appreciate your kindness and your gold filled heart.
For all this and more, I want to be your wife...
It's like I've never known anything else in my life.

I Love You.

~ MoM ~

Maybe I've caused too much of a downfall,
And a lot less of gain,
Maybe I've become much less of a daughter,
And a lot more of a shame.
But one day of your silence,
Is twenty four hours of torture,
Eighty-six-thousand-four-hundred minutes of agony,
And a world, full of pain.
I'd prefer if you'd just hurt me physically, please,
Leave me no more to contemplate things,
This is insane!
Eventually,
Progressively,
And now repetitively,
I've become in your repute and your life,
A SCAR.
My actions have been a fret,
But my thoughts have always thought far.
Unconsciously and unintentionally,
I've cause too much disappointment,
And now, with drenched eyes, I try to converse,
That you, in fact, are my ointment.
I saw you whimper at school that one day,
And one tear trickling down your eye,
Lay me down in an excruciating trance;
It put me in distress!
And in my abstinent, cold, scrawny heart,
It set an enduring sty.
And even though you know that it did,
Have you ever thought: "Why?"
I seal my teeth and heart,
Each instant I see you frown,
And this time I saw you really weep,
You were hurt, really deep...
It gives me hitherto another down,
Maybe mentioning the subsequent verse
Won't prove my reverence to you...
So what shall I do?
It might just attest it's author's poetry,
and his penchant,
But for now, I use it as a medium to beseech for clarity.
Forgiveness... it is what I want...
I want to scream out loud,
With or without a crowd:

A love of a mother
Will never die
I'll never forget you
I cannot lie...
You've taught me so much
I couldn't thank you enough.
So I guess that this will have to do
I'll try and show my appreciation for you.
You're a wonderful mother
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel like I belong.
You are patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask...
It seems you can do most anything;
You are the master of every task.
You're a dependable source of comfort;
You are my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.
I love you more than I can express
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!
As for I wouldn't be the girl I am today
Without your love along the way.

I Love You Mom.